仲係好煩惱,同昨日一樣,我從來冇咁恨過自己,我好嬲自己,點解我會咁,我好煩惱,我到底應該點做??係唔係應該維持現況,做d行動,還是放棄??我好恨我自己點解會咁,我好自私,點解有人係後面咁對我,我反而冇好好咁對佢,我反而另想第二d野,點解我會諗咁多,根本係冇可能既事,其實唔可以話冇可能,可能性極低既事,我都抱有期望,下午望住個天空,個鼻酸左一下,有d想喊既感覺,好恨我自己,到底我幾時先可以諗通,我唔想咁,但係個心卻要我….唉……我唔想做一個咁既人,夠啦,我好恨我自己……點解要咁wo……….

  多謝timtam同埋英國既你,昨晚既問好,但係我都冇講到發生咩事,因為e d野我唔想話俾人知,怪我自私都好,我唔想講出黎,但一黎我唔想我默默忍受,啊比我諗佢都係想問我咩事,係咪??我見你睇緊我日記個陣,我話唔好問我野,我唔想講,希望可以快d睇化d,唉…….其實我最想係個個人睇到…..

  對上一次喊,已經係上年番大陸既時候既事,公公,老遠趕過黎,為左係見我個一粒鐘,都咁大年紀,我唔想見到佢咁辛苦,佢叫我仲話我乖,自問自己唔乖,我唔係一個好仔,亦都唔係一個好男友,我咩都唔係好,仲有d親戚朋友送我落去,因為我三年冇番過去,上年番過一次,對上一次已經係中一個陣,番去個陣爺爺仲送我車,八十幾九十歲啦,唔係佢遲結婚,佢e個年紀,有曾孫,走個陣係火車上面係咁忍住忍住,直到走,訓覺個陣,我忍唔住……我都只係整個假面具俾人睇,我冇事,我好堅強,我有好多野要做,但係我都係人,我冇讀好書,亦都唔係叻仔,你地既希望某程度上做左唔少壓力俾我,再諗番今日,今日諗起e件事,都唔可以話一件事,只不過係我自己想好多野,點解我會咁……第一次咁恨自己,唉…..夠啦

  聽日番學,成堆功課,我仲有化學未做,都唔想做,唉…聽日番去抄啦,希望彭彭仲可以番到黎啦,不過我都係冇抱咁大希望,唉……發覺世界係冇可能有公平既一日,只有接近公平既一日